Dream

What if you slept? 
And what if,
In your sleep
You dreamed?
And what if,
In your dream,
You went to heaven
And there plucked
A strange and
Beautiful flower?
And what if,
When you awoke,
You had the flower in your hand?
Ah, what then?

-Samuel Taylor Coleridge-

Good nite dear world.
Sweet dream
and mystical dream?

Happy Home

Mama called about the paper turns out they wrote about me
Now my broken heart's the only thing that's broke about me
So many people should have seen what we got going on
I only wanna put my heart and my life in songs
Writing about the pain I felt with my daddy gone
About the emptiness I felt when I sat alone
About the happiness i feel when I sing it loud
He should have heard the noise we made with the happy crowd
Did my grandaddy know he taught me what a poem was
How you can use a sentence or just a simple pause
What will I say when my kids ask me who my daddy was
I thought about it for a while and I'm at a loss
Knowing that I'm gonna live my whole life without him
I found out a lot of things I never knew about him
All I know is that I'll never really be alone
Cause we gotta lot of love and a happy home

Magazines are writing stuff but I don't ever read them
Some of the folks I used to know would see and start believing
That I would pass them by on streets and never reach to greet them
I still remember folks even though I rarely meet them
Don't you know I miss the times when we used to hang
Before twenty deep depended on a single man
Before a single heart was broken by a single blow
Before all our careers depended on a single show
I grew up with a lot of love in a happy home
Now I got a lot of cash and I'm on a road
I realize privacy's becoming difficult
It's all right now but what about when I'm old
I know my good friends now they'll last
The same ones that stood by me when my daddy past
All I know is that we'll never really be alone
Cause we got a lot of love and a happy home

I write a lot of songs will anybody ever read them
You hear them on the radio but will you really read them
Why do we have our idols and why do we wanna be them
After we see them on TV we really wanna meet them
Don't you think they miss the time when they used to hang
Before a fan base depended on a single man
Before a single heart was broken by a single show
Who's gonna stand who's gonna fall I really wanna know
I grew up with a lot of love in a happy home
My daddy use to play me vinyl but now daddy's gone
I used to practice with my mommy on the piano
I still get nervous every time I know she's at a show
Now my family comes first before everyone
I had the perfect dad I wanna be the perfect son
Though I really feel sometimes I am on my own
I know I got a lot of love and a happy home

Best lyrics dia. Lagu dia just so-so sajo.
Thanks Harry Hart for this wonderful song.
Me likeyyyy so muchieee.
Yeah, there's a brightside at the end.

“Each day has its bright side. So, in order to continuously experience a happy life, you must consistently find the bright side of each day and give it your undivided attention.”
― Edmond Mbiaka

Fairytale Cottage

Satu benda tentang diri aku, I do love fairytale cottages.
Sejak dedulu lagi sebab terpengaruh ngan cite fairytales.
Aku suka all of cite fairytales tahap cipan if u wanna know lah.
Mostly cite fairytales mesti ada cottage yang cecomel.
Mak suka noks.
Cantik and nampak magical tau. Aum!
Pernah laaa jugak verangans nak duk lam cottage yang cecomel.

Hey, I wanchuuuu..

Aku pernah laa dulu rasa nak lari jauhhhh..
duk lam cottage yang comel and ditemani view yang indah.
Seolah-olahnya di oversea sana. Pheww.
Ape ke hazabb diriku.
Sanggup ke duk sensorang dalam cottage yang ala-ala cite The Hobbit ituu.

So, future hub..
I dont need any big houses.
Cukuplah sekadar cottage yang comel for both of us.
Haha.


Eh comel juga english house ini

Ramadhan.. janganlah cepat berlalu.
Indahnya Ramadhan..
Taknak raya, nak bulan Ramadhan je.
Tetiba.

Nak fairytale cottage.
Sobs.
Tata.

Tak Tahu

Aku sebenarnya tak tahu nak tulis apa. Tapi gigih jugak nak tulis.

Jadi apa yang harus aku tulis. Aku rasa macam best pulak menaip pakai lappy ni haa.

Gian nak menaip asimen macam zaman maktab barangkali.

Kalau ingat balik zaman belajar dedulu.. haizz memang sadis kalau waktu asimen bertimbun.

Aku ni dah lah jenis suka keje last minute. 

Paling hazab is malam before nak submit tu menjadi seekor panda lah iols.

Paling benci sekali bab nak cari bahan reference. Aku bukan pencinta library.

Library best untuk tido je sebenarnya. Katekoo.

Alaaaaa rindu pulak dekat maktab.

Pepagi bangun pegi kelas. Pastu tido dalam kelas. Oh best. haha.

Pastu pegi lepak kat cafe and gossiping with my gegurl.

Balik kelas pulak pegi taman siswa mencari nasi barang segenggam dua.

Rindunyaaa nasi kerabu akak tepi jalan tuuuu.

Balik umah, makan nasi secara berjemaah depan tv.

Eh banyaklah yang nak dirinduinya punnn.

Sebenarnya aku ada keje lagi penting daripada menghapdate blog ni.

Well, biasa sangat dah aku ni. 

Kalau aku blank and tak tahu nak start daripada mana, online ler jawabnya untuk hilangkan kebuntuan.

Pastu kelaut keje aku. Pemende laaa kau.

Ok, macam tak tahu nak tulis apa dah. 

Sekian.

Someday

One fine day

It will come

That feeling

Good Night

Malam

Selamat malam dunia.
Maafkanlah setiap salah insan lain terhadap dirimu.
Muhasabahlah atas apa yang telah kamu lakukan seharian.
Moga esok masih ada hari yang baharu.
Moga Allah masih meminjamkan nyawa bagimu.

Comel tak lampu meja baru i. Baby snake u. Hisss.

Chak! Chak! Terasa ala-ala matang begitu ya aku berbicara kayak gitu di atas sana.
Emangnya dah kenapa berbicara seperti indon ni.
Hidup ni kena jugak serius kan.. so kenkadang aku kena cakap secara serius.
Konon nye lah.
Kenkadang kita lupa nak muhasabah diri, lupa nak maafkaan orang lain.
Its a norm. Manusia kan.

Everyday is a new beginning,
So take a deep breath, and START again.

Esok sekolah. Yay!
*menangis dalam hati*

Good Night, peeps.

To My Loved One

Hari ni Hari Bapa.
Tadi I keep on scrolling my news feed in FB.
Ramainya yang duk wish Happy Fathers Day kan..
Dalam hati terdetik Untunglah ade ayah.
Pilu sikit di situ. Huu.

Even abah dah takde, orang nak jugak wish Selamat Hari Bapa, abah.
Orang akan selalu ingat dan rindu abah, walau kita sekarang dalam dua alam yang berbeza.
Dalam hari-hari yang orang lalui, tak pernah pun orang lupa abah.
Semoga amal yang orang buat untuk abah, sampai la kat abah.
Bila family kita berkumpul ramai-ramai, orang rasa sedih sebab abah takda.
Terus terfikir, bestnya kalau abah ada sama.
Then, imagine that abah ada bersama-sama kami.

The last time I visit you was during school break baru-baru ni.
I tried to talk to you, but its so hard.
Mesti nak jugak tersebak, termenangis.
Orang minta maaf. Kan kita tak boleh menangis untuk orang yang dah meninggal.
Abah, im deadly missing you.

Dear abah,
In the future,
I may love a man a lot,
and someday I'll marry him.
But in the end,
let me remind you that no matter what happens,
I'll love you and you'll always be the best man that I ever know.
I promise you that I'll always be your little girl.
Love you, abah.

I'd just found out satu doa yang sangat bagus for our parents.
and it also had brought tears to my eyes. Huu.

Ya Allah.. ya Rahman.. ya Rahim…
Ampunkanlah dosa kedua ibu bapa kami..
setiap titik susu ibu yang mengalir dalam diri kami..
Kau gantilah dengan kebajikan untuknya yg boleh membawanya ke syurgaMu ya Allah..
Ya Rahman...
Pada setiap keringat yang mengalir pada tubuh ayah kami dalam mencari rezeki kepada keluarga kami..
Kau gantikanlah dengan keampunan yg membawa ke syurgaMu ya Allah. 
Sesungguhnya pengorbanan mereka tidak akan mampu kami membalasnya. 
Bahkan terkadang mereka hidup dalam kesusahan dan kesempitan, 
sedangkan kami berada dalam kesenangan dan kemewahan..
Justeru kurniakanlah kepada kedua ibu bapa kami tempat yang istimewa di syurgaMu ya Allah…
Aamiin..

Wuwuwu

Comel.

Tu je nak cakap.

Bai.

Words!

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Pablo Neruda

Thanks, Zee Avi, for introducing me this beautiful piece.

Oh oh really beautiful. Oh dang, terjiweng.

Oh oke, daaa!

Ramadhan Kareem

Assalamualaikum.. 

Ahlan wa sahlan ya Ramadhan.. :)

Alhamdulillah, we thank Allah for allowing us to witness another Ramadhan. 
May Allah help us make the most out of this month and draw closer to Him. 
May He accept our fasts and the best of our deeds. 
Ramadhan Kareem to Muslims all around the world! 
Keep the ummah in your prayers.

How I miss you Ramadhan.. im glad to meet you again :')
Selamat beribadat semuaaa..



Oh, I'd got a Ramadhan planner from someone.. super cool.
feel free to download it here.. Planner Ramadhan

Till then, bubui. ^^

Apekah

Esok karja.
Mata pula tiba-tiba degil.
Aku nak tido wei..
Janganlah memain pepagi buta cenggini..
Tak kelakor lah mata wei..

Maka berlalulah cuti dua minggu aku dengan begitu saje.
Next month pulak balik kampung.
Raya hoi raya masa tu.
Yay!
Tapi baju raya takdak lagik.
Puasa pun belum, dah gedik nak baju raya.

Sedihlah.
Takdak feel nak kerja esok.
Takleh terima kenyataan cuti dah habis.
Serius nyahh. :'(
Ni monday blues tahap moksya.
Tolonglah jangan begini.
Saya nak rejeki yang halal.
Janganlah tidak ikhlas mau ke sekolah esok wahai diri.
Huwaaa.

Oh ya, aritu menonton live perkahwinan syawal dan fiqa.
Aku sukaaa ayat jiwang dia.

Sejauh manapun cinta melangkah,
Sejauh manapun ia pergi,
Cinta pasti tahu,
Kemana ia harus pulang

Lebih kurang gitulah ayat dia.
Ekceli i tak layan oke pelamin fantasia.
Just follow final episode and live wedding dorang sebab budak fiqa tu.
Aku memang takleh la kalau tengok fiqa tu berbahasa isyarat, otomatik menitik air mata.
Hehuu hati tisu tahap dewa.
Aku doakan dia menutup aurat pasni, sebab nampak baik sangat budaknya.
Moga bahagia hingga jannah.

Dah tu kau tak reti-reti nak tido?
Nak laaaaa...
Tapi payah sangat nak lelap apesalll.
Stress.



Tata!

Buncitness

Hari ini saya telah makan dengan banyak sekali, dua kali dan tiga kali.
*well, i guess bukan hari ini je kot*
Saya tidak mempedulikan orang di sekeliling.
Setelah kenyang, saya menyesal.
Dan begitulah yang akan berlaku bila berada di kampung.
Sayalah penternak lemak yang paling berjaya.



Weiiii perut makin buncit.
Acanerrrrrrr...
Takpe, nanti kita workout eh.
Selamat membuncit my happy tummy.
I still leb u even u muncit.
Well muncit is sexayhhhh.
Katekooo.
*sobbing*

Don't

don't marry because you are of age,
don't marry because you are getting old,
don't marry because you are lonely,
don't marry because you need someone to support your financially,
don't marry because you don't want to lose the person,
don't marry because of family pressures,
don't marry because you like the idea of marriage and admire every wedding gown you see.
don't marry because all your friends are getting
married.

But get married because you are in love,
get married cos he or she is your best friend
and when that love is no more,
he or she can still make you smile..



Thats it!

It was an alaaaaaa

Asal cuti je rasa kejap gila masa berlalu.
Hey mana 1 minggu ku pergi?
Apa aku buat?
Aku rasa macam hari-hari itu berlalu dengan begitu saja.
Ooo Gardenia sungguh enak dimakan begitu saja. *tetiba*
Kejap nyeeeee lahaiii masa.
Orang tak puas lagi laa duk kat kampung.
Paham tak orang tak puas lagiiii
Tolong la pahammmm.. heheww.
Best tau duk kat kampung.
Best dia tu hingga menjilat kaki.

Ahad ni nak balik Shah Alam dah.
Taknak balik boleh?
Malasnyaaa sekolah.
Aku rasa diri ni takde beza ngan budak sekolah.
Sama je level of laziness. Hehu.

Tolonglaaa tambah lagi another one or two weeks more.
I need more time to spend wif my familia.
Like seriously!
Huwaaaa..

Mood swing.
Gigit batang eskrim magnum.

Sekian keluh kesah berpeluh mak esah.
Tata!

Nature

One thing about myself is that I do loveee beach, sea, lake and all about beautiful scenery.

Me really love beach and even can duk berjam jam lamanya kat pantai with no point. Just nikmati keindahan pantai, the breeze and ketenangan pantai itself.
Rasa calming gila kot. Best. :)
Bayu yang menyapa pipi..
ketenangan deruan ombak,
pasir yang memutih,
kicau burung,
dan langit yang membiru.
Fuihh ayat haku. Rasa cam nak lempang diri sendiri je.

Hensem kan pantai ni.
Tadi i pegi sini. Somewhere in Miami.
Miami sangat la Ganu tu.

Pendek kata aku suka keindahan alam lah.
Forest pun iols suka.
Asalkan pemandangan itu indah.
Kita nikmati, fikir dan kagumi  keindahan ciptaan Allah pun dah boleh dapat pahala. Betapa maha PemurahNya Allah.
I still remember when I was in form 2, Ustaz Hadi ajar pasal this topic.
One of my fav jugak ustaz ni, pasaii dia sempoiii.
Kat mane la agaknya ustaz ni sekarang.
Semoga ustaz dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik dan dirahmati Allah selalu.

Dark forest.
Dark forest katanyaaa.. kat Puchong jek.

So in conclusion, I just love nature.
And nature do loves me too.
Heho.

It's Holiday!

Heyyy! It's school holiday. :')
Im such a happy raccoon when it comes to this. ha-ha.
Sape tak suka holiday kheen.
Yayy 2 weeks iols cuti uols. Memang ni laa yang aku duk tunggu-tunggu.
Jangan jeles hoi.
Chaii berlagak pulak haku. :'p

Oh ya, for second time aku drive seniri balik kampung.
Nampeknya konpiden level aku dah makin tinggi. Syabas meri bheti. hiks!
Tapiiiii aku ada experience yang sangat very-the-tak-boleh-blah tau masa balik kampung aritu.
Masa sampai kat gombak tuuuu, aku telah melalui satu perjalanan yang sangat berliku-liku.
Serius sangat berliku-liku.
Mana tak berliku kalau aku pi drive kot jalan gombak lama. Scary noks jalan dia.
Kalau aku sensorang memang aku dah patah balik, scary kot weii jalan dia.
Tapi disebabkan me and my sis nak explore jalan tuu.. so kita follow the flow.
Bajet Dora the Explorer sangat aku kann.. Masa aku kecik-kecik dulu rambut aku macam Dora.
Sadiss..
Kalau malam, memang takdenya aku nak explore. Penuh dengan kisah seram kan jalan gombak lama ni. Cuba korang gugel lewww.. takut Mak Jemah nak bacewww..

Ni haa jalan itewww

View sepanjang jalan sangat cantik baq ang. Well, aku kan suka hutan.
Memang hutan laa kanan kiri jalan. Then, yang paling best kita jumpa water fall.
Monyet melintas jalan pun hado. Sejuk and nyaman je view dia tau.
Tapi seriously memang adventurous la jalan dia.. nak jumpa sebijik dua kereta pun payah.
Bila nampak kereta on the other road side terus aku bersorak keriangan bak kanak-kanak ribena.
Speed limit pun kena jaga sebab jalan dia bak ular dipalu. Betul ke tidok peribahasa aku tu.
Kang jadi peri tak reti bahasa pulak.
Masa jalan ni kan terus teringat cite yang Que Haidar berlakon tuu. Jalan Lama ke apa entah nama dia.
Oke, lepas ni taknak dah lalu ikut sini. Seram uolsss..
Tapi kan, for at least I dah ada experience drive on my own kat situ. Yay!
One more thing, boleh pulak aku fefeeling Letty kat jalan tu haa.
Road side dia ada iras-iras scene cite FnF7 gak sedikit sebanyak. haha.

Ekceli aku tak plan pun nak balik ari isnin. Planningnya nak balik on Tuesday.
Tapi pepagi isnin yang nyaman tu kakak aku telah mengerah supaya daku bangun dari pembaringan.
Makanya dalam keadaan tidak bersedia aku drive. Aku kena ready mental and pyhsical kalau nak drive tau. Over tak aku? huahua.
Aku sepatutnya dah start school holiday on Saturday.. but then, ada family day sekolah lah pulak.
So aku joinlahh kan even aku takdak family pun lagiks. Bolehlaaa tahan family day tu.
So, kita telah ke Bayou Lagoon Park Resort masa kat Melaka aritu.
Kalau yang ada anak tu, bolehlaa bawak anak ke sini.
Budak-budak suka la boleh mandi mandi kat water park nya. Just nice jela tempatnya.
Million thanks to Fazzy sebab bawak titew ke sana even bersesat-sesat dahulu pada mulanya. mihmih.

Akan ku nikmatiiiiii sepuasnyaaaa cuti kali ini! *tetiba*
Wah, seronottttt sanadddd!



Nota Kaki: Seram pulak bila aku try google pasal jalan gombak lama ni uols. Bersepah cite seram. Wuuu.

Rejection

I really hate this situation.
I'm really sorry for I couldnt make it.
I feel so bad.
Too bad.
Really bad.

I am not into any relationship.
Or maybe im not ready for it.
Or maybe im afraid of it.

SORRY.

Dear God

Dear God by AX7

I was never ever get bored of listening to tis song.
Since 2009 till forever I guess.

Levitchu M.Shadows.
Herher.